Im still hurting over the whole thing and unsure why you did what you did. I dont understand why you didnt love me, i sure loved you. I dont understand why in 06 when i bought that car from you and it broke down you resold it on me. I gave you 5000 dollars for it, no i didnt get it in my name fast enough but was trying it broke down . Maybe i should of confronted you about it. Was that why you didnt care bout me? Cause i didnt stand up to you? I dont know why im writting this your gone now. Ive tried to contact my brothers who you undoubtably loved with all your heart to no avail. I dont understand why you asked me to come and take care of you I guess its cause you knew I loved you and would. But dad you knew i was homeless and had finally got a room to stay in and that i would loose it if i came to take care of you. Its hard to know you thought so little of me i gave sugar up for you and our place we had to stay. I would of done anything for you dad it broke my heart when i watched you take your last breath. Then it broke again when you slapped me in the face with the ten dollars you left me in your will. It hurt my feelings when your son laughed and asked me so what are you going to do now? Though im hurt i know you know and GOD know i loved you and it was straight from my heart. Im not crazy people well maybe i am after all whats normal? Im trying to give my self some closeure no one else will course GOD is and helps me every day. I dont think im going to try and understand people anymore there are some really good ones out there, like mooch di and my friends they know who they are. Thanks take care tell the truth.
I PUT MY LIFE IN GODS HANDS
What better hands to be in? I know that ever since i was a little girl even in the worst a times GODS real and he is there. It was a lot harder then cause i was scared alot and yet i felt his presence even as a child. Always have and ultimately thats where i want my home to be when im done here and he is ready for me. When i was alittle girl the most important person to me aside from GOD was my granny, she was born febuary the 4th of 1888 I lost her on christmas eve of 1970.To this day ive carried her in my heart and always will sometimes when im still i can think about her and even remember the way she smelled.My granny told me about heaven and GOD I never heard her cuss ever not one time. My grannys name was eula bell and I loved her ever so much.I am so glad she was my granny ,she was real, truthful, sweet,a christian she didnt lie. She and i made a pact so to speak back then when she told me that she wouldnt be around to see me later in life I took it hard and told her if she wasnt going to be here i didnt want to be either. I still miss her to this day sometimes i do worry that i may not make it to heaven but i sure do hope i do.
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I am in fact still alive, still homeless, and still worried
Just thought id let you know in the event your wondering. I am at times more lifeless than other times, such as now. Someone left me a comment that i do nothing but whine, my reply was walk a mile in my shoes better still dont read it.I also am wondering why ive only recieved comments no one has ever sent me an email from this blog, only comments have been left mostly spam.Would love to recieve an email from this site. Who wants to be the first? Would love some words of encouragement, better still would love prayers more. Take care of yourselfs and each other try and keep it real no matter what. Meaning no lies to anyone at all for any reason, let me know how much better you feel about the truth,thanks
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WHO SAYS THE HOMELESS PEOPLE DONT DO ANYTHING TO GET OFF THE STREETS ONE IN 3 ATTEMPT SUICIDE
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HOMELESS IS HARD
Homeless is the hardest thing ive ever done. I know im not the only one. unfortunately there are thousands of us faceles, nameles, invisible people out there. That to society is an eyesore. Not saying to everyone but to the majority we are an eyesore. Roll up your window and dont look over there kinda thing.Were considered i feel loosers, amongst other things. You never know when it could happen to you, and i pray it wont. I pray harder for the ones that are homeles as myself, somethings got to give. I have faith that i see the day that i will no longer be homeless. I pray and would love to see no one ever be homeless, pipe dream im afraid. I have to have faith otherwise i couldnt go on. My youngest brother told me once take it one day at a time,and if thats not working a hour at a time, im down to a second at a time,but still holding on.Thanks take care
TODAY I WENT TO CHURCH IT SURE WAS NICE
It was not only nice but the last time i went im ashamed to say however its true i had my sons with me i wasnt homeless then. What happened the last time however funny it is now to me at the time mortified me. I was barely in my twentys my youngest son who was three at the time i said to him its time we get to church and learn bout god and heaven etc. well we went it was pretty full we took our seats at the back and my three year old said very loudly i know one thing this aint heaven and that man aint GOD everyone turned to look i should a said thats my boy and waved however i was simply mortified and we left. Today i enjoyed it ever so much, got to see mr woods and finally got to meet his beautiful wife who i could almost feel electricity from wow i thought amazeing the feeling i got when i met her. The pastors name is jason wow he made me laugh and then i was facinated by his passion and the sermon ever so much. Im very happy i went i enjoyed it ever so much and took it in like you take and absorb something in a sponge and its a nice feeling just had a chance to get on this nice ladys computer for a minute and wanted to let yaull know thanks take care till next time.
ITS A HUNDRED AND FOUR IN THE SHADE
TAKE CARE EVERYONE DRINK LOT A FLUIDS ITS HOT OUT HERE
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SWEET CHILD OF MINE
YOU KNOW I LOVE AND MISS YOU. AM VERY PROUD OF YOU,I HAVE LEARNED SO MUCH FROM YOU, YOU ARE AN AWESOME SON THANK YOU, I LOVE YOU MORE!
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THANKS CAROL AND MIKE MISS YAULL
Thanks for being there for me,mike your a great cook,ugh lol. carol what can i say?how bout it mike what can i say? there are some things that cant be said but i know yaull know. i do miss and love you both!as well as treasure your friendship thanks
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CAN YOU SELL YOUR SKILLS N ADVICE?
Guess im wondering because of the shape im in. I would gladly give it for free however i am just asking.for instance do you love tropical plants? do you also feel that because you dont have a green thumb that you cant have a house full of huge tropicals? if you want i will gladly tell you how as well as the kinds free of charge. there are so few secrets to know and with the right plants so little maintenance, i believe it or not at one time took care of 28 places banks, offices,etc and know what im talking about, just trying to do or have something positive to give let me know, thanks
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